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Unplugged or Recharging
Sometimes you just need to shut everything off, and recharge. I'm beginning to realize that I am getting pretty burnt out from work. Where I once could say I loved my job; I struggle now. It's hard, because my job has been good me over these past 12 years. But I am finding it difficult to address certain issues. I feel like I am spinning my wheels, and not making the impact I need to make. This weekend I told my husband I wish I was crafty enough to work from home and just have a shop on etsy or something. It would never pay nearly as well as I currently make; which is why I always just wake up and go back to work in the morning.
I am trying to find ways to re-charge. My 3 month maternity leave was really fantastic for that - and so I find myself wishing I had another one coming up soon. But I can't just keep having babies every year so I get 3 months off work - that's just silly. One more, maybe. But not every year.
I realized that what I am missing in my life, that I had in California, is connections: friendships. I feel so alone out here. So I have taken the weekend to changing that. I've joined an obnoxious amount of facebook groups that all have similar interests. It'll be up to me to make those connections. I also know that the summer heat of Arizona makes it hard to want to get out of the house and do anything at all. I am trying to overcome that fear of the heat. I found myself going out yesterday to get some fresh air and get re-energized. It did help.
Sometimes you need to remember to take time for yourself. It is okay to unplug for a while. Once you've recharged, plug yourself back into life and keep going. I need that now more than ever for my son. He needs me at my best.
I hope something comes of the things I've invested in this weekend. I really need a change in my life.
